Thank you, Substack readers who were concerned that I was depressed.
No worries, it wasn’t the beginning of an overall depressed personality disorder, it was just a temporary depression based on my focus on the darkness in our world and ignoring the light.
I pulled myself out of it by writing the last Substack. The cure was in the stack itself. I expressed myself in that post. I moved out of depression since depression is a lack of expression, a sort of paralysis - call it repressed anger, call it boredom, blah, blah, blah.
Navigating a fallen world has been the theme of humanity since the apple had a couple of bites in it. It’s okay not to be a total Pollyanna.
“Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.” Kahlil Gibran
To work through the journey here on earth is to go through sorrow and joy. “Living in God’s realm where joy never spares one from sorrow.” Abraham Verghese, The Covenant of Water.
When I take in what disturbs me, I get stuck in the muck. But I don’t want to ignore the threats of this time. I don’t want to ignore the symbols of a decline and the overzealous desires of the globalists working through their puppets. I think of my grandparents and my parents each living through wars, the Depression, disease, loss, and injustice yet they told great stories, laughed and survived it all. When I think of them, I re-emerge with a new understanding that each time in history and the one that is happening today has its dark side. It is up to me to find virtue in myself for daily life with the ultimate expression which is love.
The renewal takes place, and I see the rising sun peeking over the tall tress out my window. I repent of myself and try very hard to stop blaming others, ask for forgiveness, and believe that taking care of my soul is foremost in this messy place. This world will pass, and I hope to live in the eternal Kingdom of God. Through my free will, granted by a merciful God, I chose Him, His way, and His expression of love through His Son, Jesus Christ. No tyranny, no collective mindset, no form of government will destroy my soul.
This is the day the Lord has made, let us rejoice in it and be glad.” (Psalm 118: 24), even if we think it sucks at times.
Regina, I'm glad your pause has reignited. Your soulful writing inspires me. The quotes you used read to my heart. Take care!